Chapter 14 - Mayhem and Secrets
It was the morning after the dance, Cesca was finding hard to get up for once, she had so much anger inside yet so much sadness, she didn’t have that normal burst of energy that came with her feeling so content and happy. She rolled out of the bed she had shared with herself, that on its own had left a whole in her heart. She loved Jonah and always would but last night was their first big row and the consequences of that were that Jonah had slept on the sofa. Cesca was exhausted and tired, she had got in late after heading to the hospital with Chris who had taken a heck of a beating from a very jealous Jonah, Cesca was embarrassed she couldn’t just go off with Jonah, she wanted to show him that protecting her by fighting wasn’t the Jonah that she wanted, she wanted him to protect her from harm and all the obstacles that they might face but a drunken Chris wasn’t what Cesca called an obstacle, he may have tried to kiss her, but she stopped it. Jonah didn’t need to hit him, he was drunk and he may have had buried feelings deep inside for her that had become prominent after a few volumes of alcohol, but that didn’t matter Cesca wasn’t interested so there was no reason for him to be jealous. Cesca had risked everything for Jonah she wasn’t about to make a U turn and go back to everything she once had, she wasn’t as happy as she is now, she has everything she ever wanted and it may have come at a price, but she had it now and that was all that mattered. She felt awful for going with Chris but then again Jonah was the one in the wrong she was only trying to mend is mistake, she knew that this had made Jonah angry and that just made her feel worse, she was dreading going downstairs and seeing him so wound up and all because of her, though it wasn’t because of her, it was because of Jonah, but Cesca decided that she needed to be the grown up she was, so she got dressed, hair and makeup done and headed to dress Mia, who was contently sitting in her cot after Jonah had kindly picked her up from Marcus’s last night, despite being in a foul mood with Cesca. “Hello gorgeous”, she said as she picked Mia up out of her cot and headed for her wardrobe to look for Mia’s clothes. She browsed and browsed until she found a cute lilac pair of dungarees, the bottom of the legs was turned up revealing a cute lilac and white striped fabric. Cesca put her daughter in the dungarees complete with a short sleeved white top complete with a slanted bow on Mia’s left shoulder. Mia was now getting bigger so Cesca decided to try putting a hair band in Mia’s hair, it too was lilac and complete with a slanted bow, she placed it in Mia's hair, she was shocked to see Mia still content as she moved her hands away, “aw what a good girl Mia”, she smiled picking her up and carrying her little princess downstairs and placing her in her newly bought highchair, she really was getting bigger. Cesca looked over to a sleeping Jonah, she was going to wake him up but wasn’t quite sure what to say, so instead walked over to the window and opened the curtains, she figured this way he would wake up on his own, with that she headed for the kitchen to go and make up some baby porridge for Mia.
In the meantime Jonah had woken up to the bright light that streamed through the window and the sound of Cescas heels hitting the floor as she walked, he sighed knowing that today was going to be hard. It was the first day of his a level exams and he was in an argument with his wife not the best combination. He headed for shower as he noticed the time was approaching ten to 8. Cesca re-entered the room just as Jonah was leaving, she was about to say something but couldn’t get the words to leave her lips, so instead she pulled a chair up to Mia’s highchair and began to feed the porridge to Mia, but not before placing her gorgeous, pink bear bib on. Mia loved the porridge as she lapped up each mouthful like a good little girl, Cesca was approaching the bottom of the bowl as Jonah re-entered the room now all ready for school. Cesca felt now was the right time to talk, she didn’t want this to be on Jonah’s mind whilst in his exams, that was definitely not a good idea and he didn’t deserve that he had worked so hard over the past year; all he needed was to do well. “Look, Jonah”, Cesca began as a slightly sorry for himself Jonah turned around and also grabbed a chair whilst he watched Cesca finish feeding a very hungry madam. He let Cesca finish before adding anything to the conversation; he felt that she deserved the respect to explain how she was feeling. “Jonah, about last night”, he couldn’t resist he felt so bad to, he knew he had done the wrong thing the moment he punched Chris in the face, “I’m sorry Ces, it was all my fault, if I hadn’t punched him, we wouldn’t be here talking about it now, I was mad at you for going with Chris but you were just doing the right thing”, “Jonah, I probably shouldn’t have gone, but I couldn’t just leave with you all happy after you punched him in front of the whole school”, Cesca’s voice was beginning to become quite and frail, “Ces, I’m so sorry, I acted like a complete jerk. I trust you Cesca, I wasn’t expecting him to try and kiss you it came as a shock, I didn’t know how to react, I love you Cesca and I’m never going to lose you without putting up a fight”, A smile crept on Cesca’s sad face, “I know you would Jonah, but you’re not losing me, so you don’t have to fight, I’m with you aren’t I, I’m not interested in anyone else, I want to be with you for the rest of my life”, He gave her a kiss, Cesca pausing between Mia’s next mouthful, Mia let out a grunt, butting in-between Cesca and Jonahs magical moment, they had yet again got through it, they were strong but that doesn’t mean it was always going to be plane sailing as they were constantly finding out again and again . “I think someone else is wanting your undivided attention”, Jonah, added after hearing Mia’s grunt and seeing her tiny screwed up face, he giggled and so did Cesca, “I think she can wait her turn”, Cesca said cheekily as she put the bowl down and gave him a proper hug and long passionate kiss before picking up the bowl again and giving Mia her last mouthful, she was satisfied despite the wait. Cesca walked into the kitchen whilst Jonah sorted Mia’s face out before picking her up and putting on her cardigan ready to leave, “So do you think you’re ready for these exams?” Cesca asked him, knowing that today was a big day for him. “I’m nervous but feeling a lot better now that we have cleared this up”, Cesca agreed she hated being in rows with Jonah. “Good, cause I’m sure you’re going to do great, your waterloo road’s A* pupil, you’re going to ace it” Cesca added before kissing him on the cheek and grabbing her coat and bag, Jonah who was ready and holding Mia headed for Cescas car, Cesca followed with a cheeky grin on her face, she felt like the clouds had past now that there was no more arguing or in their case silent anger.
They were all in the car and enjoying the ride to school with the radio playing in the background, the pair of them couldn’t help but giggle as Mia attempted to sing along to Bruno mars just the way you are by letting out tiny but loud “Murs” every now and then. It was adorable, maybe Mia had some musical streak in her, who knows. They reached school after watching Mia’s little performance, as they got out the car last night’s events began to flood back, “Ces, I’m sorry I put you through that”, “Jonah, I understand why you did but as long as you know it isn’t right”, “I do “Jonah responded quickly before seeing Chris, whose face was scabby and bruised. Cesca began to get Mia out the car as Jonah said “Ces, I just got to do something”, before she could respond he was gone, she wasn’t quite sure what he was doing until, she had got Mia out the car, bag in the other arm and was walking towards the school. “Mr Mead” Jonah shouted, Cesca was pleased, it was a shock to all of them when Jonah hit Chris last night, it was out of character, Chris wasn’t surprised to see his face, he knew he hadn’t meant it, in fact he was feeling quite embarrassed for even trying it on, he was so drunk. “I just want to apologise for last night, I was out of order.” Chris butted in before Jonah could get another word in “I can’t say I blame you, I tried it on with your Mrs’s. You had the right to be angry”, “but that doesn’t make up for the fact I hit you, I should have just confronted you,” Cesca had now reached Jonah and had placed a hand on his arm; she had heard nearly every word and was proud of him. “Jonah don’t worry about it, it was my drunken mistake”. Chris turned to go inside and Jonah was about to when Cesca whispered in his ear before kissing him good bye, “I’m proud of you Jonah and I love you, now go and ace those exams”, He smiled kissing her back, filled with a lot more confidence towards a whole day’s worth of exams. Jonah had an exam first period so it was Cesca’s turn to take Mia to crèche, Mia’s little face lit up at the sight of Beth, this made Cesca happy as it meant that she knew Mia was in safe hands. She left her daughter and headed to get on with the rest of the day which started with a quick message in the staff room from Karen.
“morning, just wanted to say that we as a school are wanting to give a really clear message about safe sex and to get the students to understand the facts, so PSE lessons are to simply consist of the facts and the importance of being in a stable and secure relationship and to include that having sex means you are saying that you’re ready to be a parent, we don’t want there to be any encouragement of this matter or any influences of any sort” Cesca had year 11 for PSE first lesson this had just made that lesson a whole lot more difficult, it was already a hard enough topic to educate young people on especially when half of them were too immature to even hear the word and the other were already doing it and didn’t care what the school said about it. “So how exactly am I going to teach a group of year 11’s the ins and outs of sex without giving them the idea of having it, if they’re going to have it can’t we at least try to encourage them to be safe?” “Cesca we shouldn’t need to, if there taught properly about the subject, they shouldn’t even begin to contemplate the matter, I’m sure you’ll figure something out”, “You are kidding Karen, a room full of testosterone isn’t exactly going to be easy to get this message across”, Tom added as he felt that Karen had put Cesca down without a fair trial as it were. “We are teachers; we will get the message across”. With that the staff left agitated and Cesca worried about how her PSE lesson first period was going to go, they were teenagers it’s the sort of thing a few of them would be thinking about and it happens in life, you can’t just completely try to block it out, it may be for their safety but their teenagers and teenagers break the rules.
Cesca entered her classroom apprensively, breathing in before walking to the front where she put her bag down and found the PowerPoint ready for the lesson, then signalled for the class to come in, “Morning”, she said as they came in, she had no idea how she was going to get through the lesson, how was she to teach a lesson on sex and relationships without influencing students to not do it. She began the lesson, going with the flow of things, the class seemed to be enjoying the lesson, they were listening and quizzical about the overall content of it, asking about age of consent which Cesca replied with “16, but at this age you have your whole lives ahead of you, if you are having sex you are saying that you are ready to become parents which I am sure none of you are”, Cesca could see in the students faces, the words hypocrite, she felt so uncomfortable teaching a lesson on something that had clearly happened a lot closer to home. She decided to be upfront and ignore what Karen had to say the kids needed to know the facts but they needed someone they could trust to, “Right, I can’t teach this like this, Mrs Fisher can shout all she likes, you’re at the age where you all beginning to think about it and some of you may even do it, but as long as your safe and know the risks it’s up to yourselves, though I would advise that you don’t rush into things, there is such a high chance that you become pregnant or develop STI’s, you need to think before you act”, as Cesca said this she noticed a rather worried Sambuca Kelly’s face become almost a shade paler, she kept her eye on her as she addressed the class telling them what they were to be getting on with, “Right, so this lesson you are all to become agony aunts, you are to answer these typical questions that many of you all want the answer to or you may know someone going through the same thing, your role is to give them some mature and sensible advice, take into account their position and try to give impartial advice, giving at least two options so the person doesn’t feel pressured into carrying out your answer, if you need any help as always I’m here to help”, the class got on with the task whilst Cesca got out some coursework whilst keeping her eye on Sam who really wasn’t her normal self, something was on her mind, she almost looked ill, her face was pale, her hands were shaking. Cesca didn’t want to cause a scene so simply waited till the end of the lesson, it came before she knew it. “Right, so can you start to pack up”, “Remember if you ever need someone to talk to I’m here”, Cesca looked at Sam the whole time, she really wanted Sam to be the one who told her what was going on and that Cesca wouldn’t have to ask her. The class left, Cesca felt that her lesson had gone well, she didn’t think Karen would approve but after all her teaching techniques were very different to hers, Karen once described her as being a teacher who could really involve a class. She had defiantly done that. The class had all left but Sam was taking longer to clear her lack of possessions off her desk, Cesca had noticed but carried on clearing her coursework away until Sam came over, she was very apprehensive shaking and getting even paler, “Sam, you okay?”, “urm yeah, well actually I... I “, she couldn't get the words out before he burst into tears, she was a wreck the poor kid clearly had something on the chest and this lesson had just made it a hundred times worse. “It’s alright, do you want to talk about it?, I won’t tell anyone else, complete confidentiality”, Cesca let out a smile as Sam began to calm down, “Miss, I’m in so much trouble”, “What ever it is Sam I’m sure I can help. Is it drugs?”, “No”, same replied immediately, “Boyfriend issues?” “Guess you could kind of say that, but it’s so much worse”, “Sam I cant help you unless you tell me what it is”, Sam took a deep breath in before quickly saying, “I’m pregnant!” Cesca was so shocked, she had never expected that to ever have come from Sam, Sam was one of the sensible girls, but this just proved her theory, teenagers break the rules, “Okay, so have you seen anyone about it”, “No, miss I don’t know what to do, I can’t tell Fin, he will go mad and my mum....” “Okay Sam, so what you going to do?”, “Well... I can’t get rid of it but I can’t keep it either”, Cesca didn’t know what to do, it was so much easier for her, when she was in this position plus she was an adult if Jonah backed out she could take care of herself and the baby on her own, but Sam has no one. Fin definitely wasn’t ready to hear he was going to be a dad. “Sam, you’re going to have to tell Fin”, “Miss, I told you I can’t”, “Sam, you can’t keep this from him, it’s eating you up inside, I mean look at you your shaking”, “MISS, I’m fine”, Sam ran out she thought it would help but she just felt worse, now she just felt like no one was there for her. Cesca felt like she had been completely useless, she had done absolutely nothing but make the situation that much worse. “Oh Cesca”, She said to herself before getting on with her day, except that was hard enough, not only was she already thinking about Jonah sitting his exams, he would have had 3 already only 1 more to go but now she had poor Sam in her head, Sam holding a baby, she was happy. But then she remembered Fin, he would flip, he wasn’t the besotted calm and mature Jonah that Cesca had, he was the class clown who loved Sam but was never going to accept the prospect of a child lightly. Cesca seemed to see Sam everywhere that day, it was almost like this secret was haunting her, Sam had to tell someone, she couldn’t go through it all on her own, Cesca knew after all it was only15 months ago she was in the same position.
It was now the last 5 minutes of the day Cesca was just about to finish up with her year 7 Spanish class when Tom came racing in, “Cesca, it’s Sam ,she’s fainted”, Cesca was shocked, she got up racing out the door, there she was, Sam lying on the floor, the stress of the baby had all got too much, it really had just eaten away the Sam that everyone knew and loved, Cesca instantly took to the floor “Sam, Sam, can you hear me”, she shook her arm, hoping to stir her, “Right, Tom we need to take her to hospital”, “Ces, we just need to bring her round, she needs some water and some time to rest, “Tom it’s not as simple as that”, “How isn’t it”, “Tom SHE’S PREGNANT” “Oh my god Sam, I’ll call an ambulance you stay with Sam”, Cesca felt that the whole confidential thing that Karen still had going wasn’t entirely working, but how did no one other than Cesca not see that Sam was not herself, she was cold, frail and getting paler by the second. Cesca listened to her to see if she was breathing, which she was but her breaths were short and shallow and her hand was freezing. “Sam, you needed to talk to someone”, Fin had now burst through seeing his girlfriend on the floor, “Fin, you need to get back, she’ll be alright”, “Miss, she’s carrying my baby”, “I know, but right now all you can do is wait”, Fin just looked as his girlfriend was strapped to a stretcher and taken to hospital, “Now Fin”, he turned and went back to his class, Karen had now arrived and finished Cesca’s sentence for her “And as for the rest of you get back to class or it will be 2 weeks of lunchtime detention”, they hurried back as Karen asked what had happened “Karen, I can explain, I had been teaching my PSE class tackling the issue of sex and relationships and as I brought up the topic of pregnancy, Sam just went as white as a sheet, I watched her all lesson slowly deteriorate until she finally told me what was on her mind, I couldn’t tell anyone because if a student tells us in confidence it’s counted as confidential, remember your rule”, “Yes I do Cesca, look you did the right thing, you couldn’t have got her out of this situation”, “She refused to tell anyone, she wouldn’t even tell Fin, she knew how he would react”, “Look Cesca, I’m going to have to phone her mum, she needs to know what’s going on”, “Okay, can I come with you, I need to see how she is, she was a wreck this morning”, “Sure meet you outside by my car”, Cesca began to grab her things whilst Karen went to call Rose.
Cesca was panicked, Sam was one of her favourite students, how had she gotten herself into this situation, Sam must have been terrified and she guessed still was, this had completely taken over Sam. Cesca grabbed her coat and bag and headed down the corridor conveniently bumping into Mr Kirby himself, “Hey lovely, ready to leave”, “Jonah, I have to go, Sam’s at the hospital, she collapsed and she’s pregnant, she told me in confidence I need to be there for her as the person she trusts, I’ll meet you and Mia at home, love you”, they exchanged a kiss before Cesca raced off down the corridor and headed for Karen’s car, who was already holding Karen, she got in and they raced off to the hospital both slightly panicked. They reached the hospital and were immediately greeted by tom who was sitting with a much brighter Sam. “How you feeling Sam”, Cesca asked she was really worried about Sam, and Sam could see it in her eyes “Miss thank you, for everything, I know you told Tom because he needed to know, is my mum on her way?”, Sam finished her sentence apprehensively, “Yes, Sam she is”, Karen replied, Sam bowed her head she couldn’t face the raff of her mum. Karen, Cesca and Tom all did their best to support Sam just as Rose came in and made the whole situation a hell of a lot worse, “Sam, how irresponsible could you be, do you really think we need another kid around the house?” Sam replied hesitantly “Mum, it wasn’t like that, this was never meant to happen”, Sam began to cry, Cesca instantly ran over, to reassure Sam with a hug “Shh” she whispered just like she did to Mia every night when she screamed her little heart out. “Rose, this really isn’t helping”, Tom shouted at her, “I don’t care she needs to know that I am finally wiping my hands with her, I have done everything for that girl but no more, I want you out Sam!” and with that Rose Kelly left, slamming the door as she walked through. Sam burst into tears once more, “Sam it’s going to be alright”, “How is it Miss, I have nowhere to live and my mum hates me!” “Sam, you’re a strong girl, you’ll get through this, with or without you mum and Fin”, Sam began to become even more hysterical “Look Sam, why don’t you come and stay with me and Jonah, just till your sorted”, “that sounds like a great idea”, Karen added, she was extremely pleased with Karen today, gold stars all round for the work that she had done today. “Ces, that’s lovely of you, but only if your sure, you have got Mia after all”, “and you have Josh and Adanna”, Cesca smiled, “Tom ,it’ll be fine, Sam trusted me with this and I’m going to help her through it”, Sam smiled, Mrs Kirby had been so good to here, she really felt like Cesca was the one person she could rely on and Cesca knew this to, she just really didn’t want to mess this up she needed all the support she could get, after all she had now decided she was going to keep the baby. Cesca left a rather content Sam to get ready to leave before saying good bye to a pleased Tom and Karen, she then headed out to the corridor to make a much need call, “Hey Jonah it’s me, Sam’s fine and I’m leaving soon, but Sam’s coming to”, “she’s coming back?”, “she has fallen out with her mum, she’s kicked her out for keeping the baby”, “Cesca that’s fine, I’ll make up the spare room and see you both soon, I love you Cesca”, the call ended, Cesca really did feel like a good Samaritan, she went back in collected Sam and they both headed back in the car, but before they left Sam had one last thing to say to Cesca, “Thank you, you have done so much for me today”, “Sam I’m your teacher and we have to look out for our students” and with that they headed back home, Sam needed the Kirby’s and they were going to help her, after all it hadn’t been long since they had been going through a very similar thing, they were experienced in this field, especially Jonah.
In the meantime Jonah had woken up to the bright light that streamed through the window and the sound of Cescas heels hitting the floor as she walked, he sighed knowing that today was going to be hard. It was the first day of his a level exams and he was in an argument with his wife not the best combination. He headed for shower as he noticed the time was approaching ten to 8. Cesca re-entered the room just as Jonah was leaving, she was about to say something but couldn’t get the words to leave her lips, so instead she pulled a chair up to Mia’s highchair and began to feed the porridge to Mia, but not before placing her gorgeous, pink bear bib on. Mia loved the porridge as she lapped up each mouthful like a good little girl, Cesca was approaching the bottom of the bowl as Jonah re-entered the room now all ready for school. Cesca felt now was the right time to talk, she didn’t want this to be on Jonah’s mind whilst in his exams, that was definitely not a good idea and he didn’t deserve that he had worked so hard over the past year; all he needed was to do well. “Look, Jonah”, Cesca began as a slightly sorry for himself Jonah turned around and also grabbed a chair whilst he watched Cesca finish feeding a very hungry madam. He let Cesca finish before adding anything to the conversation; he felt that she deserved the respect to explain how she was feeling. “Jonah, about last night”, he couldn’t resist he felt so bad to, he knew he had done the wrong thing the moment he punched Chris in the face, “I’m sorry Ces, it was all my fault, if I hadn’t punched him, we wouldn’t be here talking about it now, I was mad at you for going with Chris but you were just doing the right thing”, “Jonah, I probably shouldn’t have gone, but I couldn’t just leave with you all happy after you punched him in front of the whole school”, Cesca’s voice was beginning to become quite and frail, “Ces, I’m so sorry, I acted like a complete jerk. I trust you Cesca, I wasn’t expecting him to try and kiss you it came as a shock, I didn’t know how to react, I love you Cesca and I’m never going to lose you without putting up a fight”, A smile crept on Cesca’s sad face, “I know you would Jonah, but you’re not losing me, so you don’t have to fight, I’m with you aren’t I, I’m not interested in anyone else, I want to be with you for the rest of my life”, He gave her a kiss, Cesca pausing between Mia’s next mouthful, Mia let out a grunt, butting in-between Cesca and Jonahs magical moment, they had yet again got through it, they were strong but that doesn’t mean it was always going to be plane sailing as they were constantly finding out again and again . “I think someone else is wanting your undivided attention”, Jonah, added after hearing Mia’s grunt and seeing her tiny screwed up face, he giggled and so did Cesca, “I think she can wait her turn”, Cesca said cheekily as she put the bowl down and gave him a proper hug and long passionate kiss before picking up the bowl again and giving Mia her last mouthful, she was satisfied despite the wait. Cesca walked into the kitchen whilst Jonah sorted Mia’s face out before picking her up and putting on her cardigan ready to leave, “So do you think you’re ready for these exams?” Cesca asked him, knowing that today was a big day for him. “I’m nervous but feeling a lot better now that we have cleared this up”, Cesca agreed she hated being in rows with Jonah. “Good, cause I’m sure you’re going to do great, your waterloo road’s A* pupil, you’re going to ace it” Cesca added before kissing him on the cheek and grabbing her coat and bag, Jonah who was ready and holding Mia headed for Cescas car, Cesca followed with a cheeky grin on her face, she felt like the clouds had past now that there was no more arguing or in their case silent anger.
They were all in the car and enjoying the ride to school with the radio playing in the background, the pair of them couldn’t help but giggle as Mia attempted to sing along to Bruno mars just the way you are by letting out tiny but loud “Murs” every now and then. It was adorable, maybe Mia had some musical streak in her, who knows. They reached school after watching Mia’s little performance, as they got out the car last night’s events began to flood back, “Ces, I’m sorry I put you through that”, “Jonah, I understand why you did but as long as you know it isn’t right”, “I do “Jonah responded quickly before seeing Chris, whose face was scabby and bruised. Cesca began to get Mia out the car as Jonah said “Ces, I just got to do something”, before she could respond he was gone, she wasn’t quite sure what he was doing until, she had got Mia out the car, bag in the other arm and was walking towards the school. “Mr Mead” Jonah shouted, Cesca was pleased, it was a shock to all of them when Jonah hit Chris last night, it was out of character, Chris wasn’t surprised to see his face, he knew he hadn’t meant it, in fact he was feeling quite embarrassed for even trying it on, he was so drunk. “I just want to apologise for last night, I was out of order.” Chris butted in before Jonah could get another word in “I can’t say I blame you, I tried it on with your Mrs’s. You had the right to be angry”, “but that doesn’t make up for the fact I hit you, I should have just confronted you,” Cesca had now reached Jonah and had placed a hand on his arm; she had heard nearly every word and was proud of him. “Jonah don’t worry about it, it was my drunken mistake”. Chris turned to go inside and Jonah was about to when Cesca whispered in his ear before kissing him good bye, “I’m proud of you Jonah and I love you, now go and ace those exams”, He smiled kissing her back, filled with a lot more confidence towards a whole day’s worth of exams. Jonah had an exam first period so it was Cesca’s turn to take Mia to crèche, Mia’s little face lit up at the sight of Beth, this made Cesca happy as it meant that she knew Mia was in safe hands. She left her daughter and headed to get on with the rest of the day which started with a quick message in the staff room from Karen.
“morning, just wanted to say that we as a school are wanting to give a really clear message about safe sex and to get the students to understand the facts, so PSE lessons are to simply consist of the facts and the importance of being in a stable and secure relationship and to include that having sex means you are saying that you’re ready to be a parent, we don’t want there to be any encouragement of this matter or any influences of any sort” Cesca had year 11 for PSE first lesson this had just made that lesson a whole lot more difficult, it was already a hard enough topic to educate young people on especially when half of them were too immature to even hear the word and the other were already doing it and didn’t care what the school said about it. “So how exactly am I going to teach a group of year 11’s the ins and outs of sex without giving them the idea of having it, if they’re going to have it can’t we at least try to encourage them to be safe?” “Cesca we shouldn’t need to, if there taught properly about the subject, they shouldn’t even begin to contemplate the matter, I’m sure you’ll figure something out”, “You are kidding Karen, a room full of testosterone isn’t exactly going to be easy to get this message across”, Tom added as he felt that Karen had put Cesca down without a fair trial as it were. “We are teachers; we will get the message across”. With that the staff left agitated and Cesca worried about how her PSE lesson first period was going to go, they were teenagers it’s the sort of thing a few of them would be thinking about and it happens in life, you can’t just completely try to block it out, it may be for their safety but their teenagers and teenagers break the rules.
Cesca entered her classroom apprensively, breathing in before walking to the front where she put her bag down and found the PowerPoint ready for the lesson, then signalled for the class to come in, “Morning”, she said as they came in, she had no idea how she was going to get through the lesson, how was she to teach a lesson on sex and relationships without influencing students to not do it. She began the lesson, going with the flow of things, the class seemed to be enjoying the lesson, they were listening and quizzical about the overall content of it, asking about age of consent which Cesca replied with “16, but at this age you have your whole lives ahead of you, if you are having sex you are saying that you are ready to become parents which I am sure none of you are”, Cesca could see in the students faces, the words hypocrite, she felt so uncomfortable teaching a lesson on something that had clearly happened a lot closer to home. She decided to be upfront and ignore what Karen had to say the kids needed to know the facts but they needed someone they could trust to, “Right, I can’t teach this like this, Mrs Fisher can shout all she likes, you’re at the age where you all beginning to think about it and some of you may even do it, but as long as your safe and know the risks it’s up to yourselves, though I would advise that you don’t rush into things, there is such a high chance that you become pregnant or develop STI’s, you need to think before you act”, as Cesca said this she noticed a rather worried Sambuca Kelly’s face become almost a shade paler, she kept her eye on her as she addressed the class telling them what they were to be getting on with, “Right, so this lesson you are all to become agony aunts, you are to answer these typical questions that many of you all want the answer to or you may know someone going through the same thing, your role is to give them some mature and sensible advice, take into account their position and try to give impartial advice, giving at least two options so the person doesn’t feel pressured into carrying out your answer, if you need any help as always I’m here to help”, the class got on with the task whilst Cesca got out some coursework whilst keeping her eye on Sam who really wasn’t her normal self, something was on her mind, she almost looked ill, her face was pale, her hands were shaking. Cesca didn’t want to cause a scene so simply waited till the end of the lesson, it came before she knew it. “Right, so can you start to pack up”, “Remember if you ever need someone to talk to I’m here”, Cesca looked at Sam the whole time, she really wanted Sam to be the one who told her what was going on and that Cesca wouldn’t have to ask her. The class left, Cesca felt that her lesson had gone well, she didn’t think Karen would approve but after all her teaching techniques were very different to hers, Karen once described her as being a teacher who could really involve a class. She had defiantly done that. The class had all left but Sam was taking longer to clear her lack of possessions off her desk, Cesca had noticed but carried on clearing her coursework away until Sam came over, she was very apprehensive shaking and getting even paler, “Sam, you okay?”, “urm yeah, well actually I... I “, she couldn't get the words out before he burst into tears, she was a wreck the poor kid clearly had something on the chest and this lesson had just made it a hundred times worse. “It’s alright, do you want to talk about it?, I won’t tell anyone else, complete confidentiality”, Cesca let out a smile as Sam began to calm down, “Miss, I’m in so much trouble”, “What ever it is Sam I’m sure I can help. Is it drugs?”, “No”, same replied immediately, “Boyfriend issues?” “Guess you could kind of say that, but it’s so much worse”, “Sam I cant help you unless you tell me what it is”, Sam took a deep breath in before quickly saying, “I’m pregnant!” Cesca was so shocked, she had never expected that to ever have come from Sam, Sam was one of the sensible girls, but this just proved her theory, teenagers break the rules, “Okay, so have you seen anyone about it”, “No, miss I don’t know what to do, I can’t tell Fin, he will go mad and my mum....” “Okay Sam, so what you going to do?”, “Well... I can’t get rid of it but I can’t keep it either”, Cesca didn’t know what to do, it was so much easier for her, when she was in this position plus she was an adult if Jonah backed out she could take care of herself and the baby on her own, but Sam has no one. Fin definitely wasn’t ready to hear he was going to be a dad. “Sam, you’re going to have to tell Fin”, “Miss, I told you I can’t”, “Sam, you can’t keep this from him, it’s eating you up inside, I mean look at you your shaking”, “MISS, I’m fine”, Sam ran out she thought it would help but she just felt worse, now she just felt like no one was there for her. Cesca felt like she had been completely useless, she had done absolutely nothing but make the situation that much worse. “Oh Cesca”, She said to herself before getting on with her day, except that was hard enough, not only was she already thinking about Jonah sitting his exams, he would have had 3 already only 1 more to go but now she had poor Sam in her head, Sam holding a baby, she was happy. But then she remembered Fin, he would flip, he wasn’t the besotted calm and mature Jonah that Cesca had, he was the class clown who loved Sam but was never going to accept the prospect of a child lightly. Cesca seemed to see Sam everywhere that day, it was almost like this secret was haunting her, Sam had to tell someone, she couldn’t go through it all on her own, Cesca knew after all it was only15 months ago she was in the same position.
It was now the last 5 minutes of the day Cesca was just about to finish up with her year 7 Spanish class when Tom came racing in, “Cesca, it’s Sam ,she’s fainted”, Cesca was shocked, she got up racing out the door, there she was, Sam lying on the floor, the stress of the baby had all got too much, it really had just eaten away the Sam that everyone knew and loved, Cesca instantly took to the floor “Sam, Sam, can you hear me”, she shook her arm, hoping to stir her, “Right, Tom we need to take her to hospital”, “Ces, we just need to bring her round, she needs some water and some time to rest, “Tom it’s not as simple as that”, “How isn’t it”, “Tom SHE’S PREGNANT” “Oh my god Sam, I’ll call an ambulance you stay with Sam”, Cesca felt that the whole confidential thing that Karen still had going wasn’t entirely working, but how did no one other than Cesca not see that Sam was not herself, she was cold, frail and getting paler by the second. Cesca listened to her to see if she was breathing, which she was but her breaths were short and shallow and her hand was freezing. “Sam, you needed to talk to someone”, Fin had now burst through seeing his girlfriend on the floor, “Fin, you need to get back, she’ll be alright”, “Miss, she’s carrying my baby”, “I know, but right now all you can do is wait”, Fin just looked as his girlfriend was strapped to a stretcher and taken to hospital, “Now Fin”, he turned and went back to his class, Karen had now arrived and finished Cesca’s sentence for her “And as for the rest of you get back to class or it will be 2 weeks of lunchtime detention”, they hurried back as Karen asked what had happened “Karen, I can explain, I had been teaching my PSE class tackling the issue of sex and relationships and as I brought up the topic of pregnancy, Sam just went as white as a sheet, I watched her all lesson slowly deteriorate until she finally told me what was on her mind, I couldn’t tell anyone because if a student tells us in confidence it’s counted as confidential, remember your rule”, “Yes I do Cesca, look you did the right thing, you couldn’t have got her out of this situation”, “She refused to tell anyone, she wouldn’t even tell Fin, she knew how he would react”, “Look Cesca, I’m going to have to phone her mum, she needs to know what’s going on”, “Okay, can I come with you, I need to see how she is, she was a wreck this morning”, “Sure meet you outside by my car”, Cesca began to grab her things whilst Karen went to call Rose.
Cesca was panicked, Sam was one of her favourite students, how had she gotten herself into this situation, Sam must have been terrified and she guessed still was, this had completely taken over Sam. Cesca grabbed her coat and bag and headed down the corridor conveniently bumping into Mr Kirby himself, “Hey lovely, ready to leave”, “Jonah, I have to go, Sam’s at the hospital, she collapsed and she’s pregnant, she told me in confidence I need to be there for her as the person she trusts, I’ll meet you and Mia at home, love you”, they exchanged a kiss before Cesca raced off down the corridor and headed for Karen’s car, who was already holding Karen, she got in and they raced off to the hospital both slightly panicked. They reached the hospital and were immediately greeted by tom who was sitting with a much brighter Sam. “How you feeling Sam”, Cesca asked she was really worried about Sam, and Sam could see it in her eyes “Miss thank you, for everything, I know you told Tom because he needed to know, is my mum on her way?”, Sam finished her sentence apprehensively, “Yes, Sam she is”, Karen replied, Sam bowed her head she couldn’t face the raff of her mum. Karen, Cesca and Tom all did their best to support Sam just as Rose came in and made the whole situation a hell of a lot worse, “Sam, how irresponsible could you be, do you really think we need another kid around the house?” Sam replied hesitantly “Mum, it wasn’t like that, this was never meant to happen”, Sam began to cry, Cesca instantly ran over, to reassure Sam with a hug “Shh” she whispered just like she did to Mia every night when she screamed her little heart out. “Rose, this really isn’t helping”, Tom shouted at her, “I don’t care she needs to know that I am finally wiping my hands with her, I have done everything for that girl but no more, I want you out Sam!” and with that Rose Kelly left, slamming the door as she walked through. Sam burst into tears once more, “Sam it’s going to be alright”, “How is it Miss, I have nowhere to live and my mum hates me!” “Sam, you’re a strong girl, you’ll get through this, with or without you mum and Fin”, Sam began to become even more hysterical “Look Sam, why don’t you come and stay with me and Jonah, just till your sorted”, “that sounds like a great idea”, Karen added, she was extremely pleased with Karen today, gold stars all round for the work that she had done today. “Ces, that’s lovely of you, but only if your sure, you have got Mia after all”, “and you have Josh and Adanna”, Cesca smiled, “Tom ,it’ll be fine, Sam trusted me with this and I’m going to help her through it”, Sam smiled, Mrs Kirby had been so good to here, she really felt like Cesca was the one person she could rely on and Cesca knew this to, she just really didn’t want to mess this up she needed all the support she could get, after all she had now decided she was going to keep the baby. Cesca left a rather content Sam to get ready to leave before saying good bye to a pleased Tom and Karen, she then headed out to the corridor to make a much need call, “Hey Jonah it’s me, Sam’s fine and I’m leaving soon, but Sam’s coming to”, “she’s coming back?”, “she has fallen out with her mum, she’s kicked her out for keeping the baby”, “Cesca that’s fine, I’ll make up the spare room and see you both soon, I love you Cesca”, the call ended, Cesca really did feel like a good Samaritan, she went back in collected Sam and they both headed back in the car, but before they left Sam had one last thing to say to Cesca, “Thank you, you have done so much for me today”, “Sam I’m your teacher and we have to look out for our students” and with that they headed back home, Sam needed the Kirby’s and they were going to help her, after all it hadn’t been long since they had been going through a very similar thing, they were experienced in this field, especially Jonah.
