Chapter 48 - Alone Again
Cesca woke from possibly one of the worst night’s sleep ever, she went to bed late after an eventful but passionate night with Jonah, her eyes were heavy and puffy from all the crying she had been doing the night before, a headache was beginning to make itself known, the kind of headache that spread out across your brow when you hadn’t had enough sleep. Cesca felt shattered and found some comfort in knowing that she didn’t have to get out of bed, she could catch up on her sleep all day if she wanted to, but that wasn’t her plan, Cesca didn’t want to lounge in bed all day, she hated being in her pyjamas for too long, it just made her feel all unorganised and unprepared for the day. She decided that a lie in was in order but that was only going to be a few extra minutes in bed especially with a rather hyperactive 4 year old to care for and get ready for school. Cesca allowed her eyes to close once more but it didn’t feel like they were closed for long before she felt a nudge and a shove, her eyes opened, her face screwed up as she adjusted herself to the morning light and the fact that Jonah and Mia were in her face. Mia rather cutely had her head rested on her parents mattress looking up at her mummy, Jonah had his head propped up with his arm and was gazing over Cesca, his body was touching Cesca’s, the connection sending shivers down her back, she was so glad to have this feeling back, a feeling that was promised by Jonah to never go away. Cesca was once again taken over by her throbbing head, last night was really taking its toll, it may have all been resolved but the scars were still visible. Jonah took the hint that Cesca needed to clear her head, try and relax so tried to help out by getting Mia ready for school, something he hadn’t had to or offered to do for a while. Cesca smiled at him caressing his face with her hand, “You get some more rest, you look shattered”, “I love you”, Cesca calmly whispered, the words always contained so much meaning, so much drive, desire and a whole lot of passion. Cesca buried herself in the covers as she tried to relax and use the moments she had alone to prepare herself for a day to herself, she wanted to be productive and not lounge around so sleep was very important, without a decent amount of sleep it is impossible to even begin to function. Jonah calmly got out of bed kissing his wife on the head before heading out with Mia to her room to get her dressed and all ready for school. There were no arguments no tantrums, Mia seemed to listen to Jonah she knew that daddy meant business, mummy did to but Mia always seemed to play up when mummy was getting her ready, there wasn’t really any reason for it but it was just the way Mia looked up to her parents. Mia was in a skirt today, it was semi pleated, her school polo shirt neatly ticked in, her hair was down as mummy wasn’t up to do anything clever with it so Jonah had clipped her fringe back with a cute bow slide, he hoped and secretly knew that Cesca would approve. “Right Mia, time for some breakfast”, Mia took Jonah’s hand as she bounced out of the room “Slow down, we have had enough accidents down the stairs”, Jonah passed his and Cesca’s room he took a quick peak as he passed, Cesca was peacefully sleeping, Jonah was glad to see her properly preparing herself for the day, Jonah still felt awful about the night before but by the night that they shared together last night he felt pretty sure that Cesca had forgiven him. Jonah began to put the waffles in the toaster, he wanted to bring back a more healthy atmosphere, it was clear on Mia’s face that she knew something wasn’t quite right, Cesca would have usually said good morning but instead she stayed in bed. Mia was only young so simply asked like any other 4 year old would have, “Why’s mummy still in bed”, “Because she is tired” Jonah called through from the kitchen as he buttered Mia’s waffle before squeezing on the golden syrup and topping with banana, he had to keep it healthy to some extent, “But mummy is working today”, Mia said, “No, not today sweetie. Mummy is off from work until she has your little brother or sister”, Mia’s face lit up, it was so sweet to see how excited she was about it all, really did show that everything that had happened last night had been for the right reasons, there was no way in hell that there family was going to split or divide that easily.
Jonah took Mia’s breakfast through along with his; he was rather excited along with Mia at having something a little more exciting to start the day off, breakfast was always the most important meal of the day so it had to be something yummy. Jonah finished his off first and left Mia to demolish hers whilst he put his plate in the dishwasher and boiled the kettle for Cesca’s morning cup of coffee. She knew that would put a smile on her face, she would always need her coffee to break her into the day gently. Mia had scoffed the lot, she was comfortably full and was being good, Jonah put pixel face on in the living room to keep Mia occupied whilst he went to see his beautiful Cesca who was still nicely tucked up in bed, she was rather liking not having to rush around following the morning schedule of shower, get dressed, breakfast, take Mia to school, work. It was nice to just be able to sit still for at least a few minutes. Mia was fixed on the TV screen, she was rather fancying herself as a mini Alexia these days, Alexia was the best choice to make out of all the characters, after all she was pretty, confident and quite moody – so an interesting mix of qualities. Jonah couldn’t help but giggle as Mia remembered the episode word for word; she even used Alexia’s voice to recite her lines. Mia was definitely obsessed with pixel face, but Jonah and Cesca weren’t complaining as long as Mia was happy that all that mattered. “Right I am going to take mummy her coffee”, “Stop disrupting me, I am watching pixel face daddy”, Her usual Alexia mode was on now, the voice came out an everything, Jonah laughed and took the hint, he made a sharp exit before her winging and wining could turn in to anything more than that. He held the coffee securely in his hand as he quietly walked up the stairs, careful not to do a Cesca and fall over, that just wasn’t his style especially holding a hot cup of coffee. The bedroom door had since been shut so he calmly and quietly gave a sensitive knock on the door, there wasn’t an answer so Jonah made his way in anyway, after all is was his room so it wasn’t really something that could be considered rude. He pushed the door away from him slowly as it wasn’t entirely shut just closed so only a beam of light could escape through it. He walked forward his eye level switching between Cesca’s favourite mug and Cesca herself. He reached the side of the bed that Cesca was lying in he placed the coffee down on her bedside table before sitting himself on the bed and caressing her face until her eyes opened and a smile broke on her face. “Hey”, Jonah said calmly, Cesca’s hand met Jonah’s which was still caressing her face, she just needed to have the contact of his flesh, she was still fragile from last night’s events, still on edge after it all, she felt as though she didn’t know whether Jonah was coming or going though the truth was he was staying right where he was. “I brought you your coffee”, Jonah said as Cesca struggled to sit up he helped her up before placing the pillows in a more comfortable position for her. Once she was positioned correctly he handed her the mug before simply finding himself lost in her beautiful eyes, how could he have ever thought about leaving his beautiful wife, she needed him and wanted him, most importantly she loved him and he loved her to, why would you ever think about losing something so special because things simply got tough. Cesca placed her mug down back where it had been placed by Jonah once she had finished it, “I better be taking Mia to school and getting off to work”, “Don’t go, please”, Cesca said, she really didn’t want the thought of him leaving her after everything that had happened last night, she knew he would be back, she knew he would only be at work, but him leaving for work were almost like flashbacks of him leaving in the rage he had done the night before. “I have to go baby”, “I know”, Cesca sighed as the words fell out of her mouth, “You have a good day, I love you”, Cesca said, “I love you to; I am only a phone call away. If you need me I’ll be there, even if it is just for a chat”, Cesca giggled, she loved Jonah so much and everything he did for her just made her tingle inside, it allowed the butterflies to flap around in her stomach her hands to shake and her heart to pound. Jonah leant in for a quick goodbye kiss which soon turned into a long passionate and much more heartfelt kiss, Cesca needed and wanted his lips, he really was her soul mate, the other piece that completed her. “I really have to go”, Jonah said pulling away after their lips locked for at least 4 minutes. Cesca had a cheeky grin and sparkly eyes as he left the room, she found herself biting her lip. It were as if she had to kid herself each time she was with him, each time he kissed her, hugged her or told her that he loved her. Each moment felt like a dream all one big fairytale that seemed almost too good to be true, but the truth was that it was real, every ounce of it. Cesca really did feel like the princess swept of her feet by her prince charming. Relationships like hers and Jonah’s didn’t come around too often; it’s not that likely that you find your soul mate without intentionally searching for them. All the wishes made on eyelashes and birthday cakes had all come true, she was happy healthy and sharing it all with such a lovely man, the love of her life. Jonah. All she ever wanted was for someone to love her, care about her, direct her and protect her. Jonah summed up all these qualities and more, she had so much faith and all her trust in him, he was forever making her proud and happy, he never failed to let her down though they did have their moments of weakness last night being a very good example of this. Cesca had put last night behind her though some of it was still managing to haunt her, especially the absence of Jonah. She knew as soon as he was to walk through that door that she was to feel the pain from last night. Jonah was hers, he protected her and at the minute she felt vulnerable, she needed him so that she could get through this, so that she could be strong, so that she could be ready to deliver their twins. The door slammed shut, the house fell silent the only noise that Cesca could hear was the sound of her own breath, each sounding more alone, more distraught than the last. She reached over to Jonah’s side of the bed clenching his pillow, holding it close to her body as she found herself sniffing the pillow for his scent, his smell, something that would just give her a feeling of Jonah being around. The pillow seemed to be doing the trick. Cesca lay with the pillow in her arms for a few moments until her phone, which was sat on her bedside table next to her clock and the bracelet that Jonah had given her not to long ago, bleeped. She loosened her grip and rolled back over slowly grabbing her phone, opening it to see she had a new message. She opened the message to see it was from Jonah, which brought a smile to her face instantly: Mia is at school, off to first lesson now, I will be home for lunch I’m missing my beautiful wife too much! Cesca smiled before holding the phone close to her chest, Cesca had found the inner strength to get on with her day, Jonah would be home again in a couple of hours, not for long but the point was he was going to be there.
Cesca rolled out of bed and headed for a shower but not before making the bed and clearing up the room in general, Cesca never was one for messiness. She headed for a shower once she decided that it was respectable enough to live in. She was feeling a lot better already with the sun pouring in through the window nothing could be have put someone in a better mood, sunshine really does have a way of putting a smile on someone’s face, sunlight just puts you in a better mood. She dried her hair before straightening it, she had decided to be different today, she felt she needed to impress Jonah, Jonah was a guy who noticed these sorts of things and as much as she knew Jonah loved her ebony locks she knew he would quite like the change to. It looked really different but so pretty. Everything looked good on Cesca and I mean absolutely everything. She looked through her wardrobe for something to wear, she looked enormous she hated being so big now, she loved being pregnant and loved everything it symbolised but the actual process was horrid, the aching, the pain and the putting on of weight was just yuck! She finally decided on leggings and a floaty top, which despite her size looked rather pretty. Cesca was pleased and comfortable which was always a combination that was hard to get right at the minute with her bump being so tender at the minute. She headed downstairs in her comfy ugg like slippers, chilling on the sofa with what would be her 3rd cup of coffee, it seemed to be the only thing that was giving her any energy that day, she just felt so lazy and sore, but it was nice to have an excuse to do nothing. Her day dragged on as so, except it wasn’t too much of a drag sitting in front of the telly catching up on the latest soaps and celeb gossip. Her hands were being warmed by the warm coffee mugs and her back was being supported by the back of the sofa so not too much aching. The time ticked by to the point Cesca had almost forgotten about Jonah coming home for lunch that was until the door keys turned and Jonah so lovingly came in, “Ces”., he called through as he popped his keys which jangled as they landed on the hall table, he then walked through into the living room to find Cesca all comfy. “Hey baby” She said as he sat down next to her giving her a loving kiss, “Haws your day been?”, she asked, “A lot better now I’m with you”, Cesca giggled as she found her and Jonahs lips meeting once more, their tongues began to mingle, Jonah clearly wanted to more “Jonah”, Cesca tried to say between each long luscious kiss. He looked at her with a cheeky smile, “It’s the middle of the day, plus you don’t have long”, “What happened to a bit of spontaneity and time is nothing, we’ve got long enough”, Cesca laughed before saying with her giggles “No, what are you wanting for lunch?”, Cesca began to get up but was stopped by Jonah, “No, I’ll get it. Chicken sandwich sound okay?”, “Lovely”, She watched as Jonah did some kind of funny dance out the room before beginning to make their lunch. Cesca couldn’t help but laugh, she loved how Jonah made her feel so good, she got up and sat at the table as she saw him bring the plates through, they sat opposite each other as they began to tuck in.
Their eyes were sparkling and smiles were present they didn’t have long before Jonah had to be back at school to teach his worst group, which made spending time with his lovely wife even more special. He reached out his hand caressing hers in his palm. “I love you so much, I know I have said it so many times, but I am so sorry about last night about everything”, “j, I love you and I know you love me to, your right we are going to argue. We’re married and we live with each other, we can’t get along all the time but it’s the way we deal with it afterwards, we need to work on that”, Cesca smiled at him, he knew that she had forgiven him, he felt better about his next class, there was no more pain, no more guilt, if Cesca was happy so was he. She really was all that mattered. Jonah had to go, he kissed his wife before being pulled back for a more intimate moment, he left with a smile on his face, leaving Cesca mirroring him, she bit her lip as she sat with her hand on her belly, this all felt so right, being married to Jonah, living with him, having his children. It all felt perfect but none of it was to perfect though Cesca sure felt like a princess in Jonah’s arms. She carried on with watching telly but this time she decided to start looking for the twin’s buggy, she just suddenly felt all maternal. Cesca had always been excited about having the twins but each day that excitement seemed to step up a notch and today’s excitement had come a little later than usual but the point was it was still there. Cesca couldn’t help but allow a black double buggy complete with the word sis and bro in pink and blue to catch her eye. It was gorgeous; the inside of each seat was very detailed and individual with the bro side black with a warm lining of baby blue fluff and blue printed stars. The sis side was also black inside but completed with a lining of pink fluff and dark pink flowers. It was simple and practical but played so nicely on the idea that they had twins; they were already so excited this was just perfect. The credit card came out and so did an even more beautiful smile as Cesca rubbed her belly, she really couldn’t wait till the day Betsy and Oscar were born. Cesca received another text it was from Jonah, what a surprise; she opened it still smiling: just to say in case you thought I hadn’t noticed, I loved the straight hair Jx.
Jonah took Mia’s breakfast through along with his; he was rather excited along with Mia at having something a little more exciting to start the day off, breakfast was always the most important meal of the day so it had to be something yummy. Jonah finished his off first and left Mia to demolish hers whilst he put his plate in the dishwasher and boiled the kettle for Cesca’s morning cup of coffee. She knew that would put a smile on her face, she would always need her coffee to break her into the day gently. Mia had scoffed the lot, she was comfortably full and was being good, Jonah put pixel face on in the living room to keep Mia occupied whilst he went to see his beautiful Cesca who was still nicely tucked up in bed, she was rather liking not having to rush around following the morning schedule of shower, get dressed, breakfast, take Mia to school, work. It was nice to just be able to sit still for at least a few minutes. Mia was fixed on the TV screen, she was rather fancying herself as a mini Alexia these days, Alexia was the best choice to make out of all the characters, after all she was pretty, confident and quite moody – so an interesting mix of qualities. Jonah couldn’t help but giggle as Mia remembered the episode word for word; she even used Alexia’s voice to recite her lines. Mia was definitely obsessed with pixel face, but Jonah and Cesca weren’t complaining as long as Mia was happy that all that mattered. “Right I am going to take mummy her coffee”, “Stop disrupting me, I am watching pixel face daddy”, Her usual Alexia mode was on now, the voice came out an everything, Jonah laughed and took the hint, he made a sharp exit before her winging and wining could turn in to anything more than that. He held the coffee securely in his hand as he quietly walked up the stairs, careful not to do a Cesca and fall over, that just wasn’t his style especially holding a hot cup of coffee. The bedroom door had since been shut so he calmly and quietly gave a sensitive knock on the door, there wasn’t an answer so Jonah made his way in anyway, after all is was his room so it wasn’t really something that could be considered rude. He pushed the door away from him slowly as it wasn’t entirely shut just closed so only a beam of light could escape through it. He walked forward his eye level switching between Cesca’s favourite mug and Cesca herself. He reached the side of the bed that Cesca was lying in he placed the coffee down on her bedside table before sitting himself on the bed and caressing her face until her eyes opened and a smile broke on her face. “Hey”, Jonah said calmly, Cesca’s hand met Jonah’s which was still caressing her face, she just needed to have the contact of his flesh, she was still fragile from last night’s events, still on edge after it all, she felt as though she didn’t know whether Jonah was coming or going though the truth was he was staying right where he was. “I brought you your coffee”, Jonah said as Cesca struggled to sit up he helped her up before placing the pillows in a more comfortable position for her. Once she was positioned correctly he handed her the mug before simply finding himself lost in her beautiful eyes, how could he have ever thought about leaving his beautiful wife, she needed him and wanted him, most importantly she loved him and he loved her to, why would you ever think about losing something so special because things simply got tough. Cesca placed her mug down back where it had been placed by Jonah once she had finished it, “I better be taking Mia to school and getting off to work”, “Don’t go, please”, Cesca said, she really didn’t want the thought of him leaving her after everything that had happened last night, she knew he would be back, she knew he would only be at work, but him leaving for work were almost like flashbacks of him leaving in the rage he had done the night before. “I have to go baby”, “I know”, Cesca sighed as the words fell out of her mouth, “You have a good day, I love you”, Cesca said, “I love you to; I am only a phone call away. If you need me I’ll be there, even if it is just for a chat”, Cesca giggled, she loved Jonah so much and everything he did for her just made her tingle inside, it allowed the butterflies to flap around in her stomach her hands to shake and her heart to pound. Jonah leant in for a quick goodbye kiss which soon turned into a long passionate and much more heartfelt kiss, Cesca needed and wanted his lips, he really was her soul mate, the other piece that completed her. “I really have to go”, Jonah said pulling away after their lips locked for at least 4 minutes. Cesca had a cheeky grin and sparkly eyes as he left the room, she found herself biting her lip. It were as if she had to kid herself each time she was with him, each time he kissed her, hugged her or told her that he loved her. Each moment felt like a dream all one big fairytale that seemed almost too good to be true, but the truth was that it was real, every ounce of it. Cesca really did feel like the princess swept of her feet by her prince charming. Relationships like hers and Jonah’s didn’t come around too often; it’s not that likely that you find your soul mate without intentionally searching for them. All the wishes made on eyelashes and birthday cakes had all come true, she was happy healthy and sharing it all with such a lovely man, the love of her life. Jonah. All she ever wanted was for someone to love her, care about her, direct her and protect her. Jonah summed up all these qualities and more, she had so much faith and all her trust in him, he was forever making her proud and happy, he never failed to let her down though they did have their moments of weakness last night being a very good example of this. Cesca had put last night behind her though some of it was still managing to haunt her, especially the absence of Jonah. She knew as soon as he was to walk through that door that she was to feel the pain from last night. Jonah was hers, he protected her and at the minute she felt vulnerable, she needed him so that she could get through this, so that she could be strong, so that she could be ready to deliver their twins. The door slammed shut, the house fell silent the only noise that Cesca could hear was the sound of her own breath, each sounding more alone, more distraught than the last. She reached over to Jonah’s side of the bed clenching his pillow, holding it close to her body as she found herself sniffing the pillow for his scent, his smell, something that would just give her a feeling of Jonah being around. The pillow seemed to be doing the trick. Cesca lay with the pillow in her arms for a few moments until her phone, which was sat on her bedside table next to her clock and the bracelet that Jonah had given her not to long ago, bleeped. She loosened her grip and rolled back over slowly grabbing her phone, opening it to see she had a new message. She opened the message to see it was from Jonah, which brought a smile to her face instantly: Mia is at school, off to first lesson now, I will be home for lunch I’m missing my beautiful wife too much! Cesca smiled before holding the phone close to her chest, Cesca had found the inner strength to get on with her day, Jonah would be home again in a couple of hours, not for long but the point was he was going to be there.
Cesca rolled out of bed and headed for a shower but not before making the bed and clearing up the room in general, Cesca never was one for messiness. She headed for a shower once she decided that it was respectable enough to live in. She was feeling a lot better already with the sun pouring in through the window nothing could be have put someone in a better mood, sunshine really does have a way of putting a smile on someone’s face, sunlight just puts you in a better mood. She dried her hair before straightening it, she had decided to be different today, she felt she needed to impress Jonah, Jonah was a guy who noticed these sorts of things and as much as she knew Jonah loved her ebony locks she knew he would quite like the change to. It looked really different but so pretty. Everything looked good on Cesca and I mean absolutely everything. She looked through her wardrobe for something to wear, she looked enormous she hated being so big now, she loved being pregnant and loved everything it symbolised but the actual process was horrid, the aching, the pain and the putting on of weight was just yuck! She finally decided on leggings and a floaty top, which despite her size looked rather pretty. Cesca was pleased and comfortable which was always a combination that was hard to get right at the minute with her bump being so tender at the minute. She headed downstairs in her comfy ugg like slippers, chilling on the sofa with what would be her 3rd cup of coffee, it seemed to be the only thing that was giving her any energy that day, she just felt so lazy and sore, but it was nice to have an excuse to do nothing. Her day dragged on as so, except it wasn’t too much of a drag sitting in front of the telly catching up on the latest soaps and celeb gossip. Her hands were being warmed by the warm coffee mugs and her back was being supported by the back of the sofa so not too much aching. The time ticked by to the point Cesca had almost forgotten about Jonah coming home for lunch that was until the door keys turned and Jonah so lovingly came in, “Ces”., he called through as he popped his keys which jangled as they landed on the hall table, he then walked through into the living room to find Cesca all comfy. “Hey baby” She said as he sat down next to her giving her a loving kiss, “Haws your day been?”, she asked, “A lot better now I’m with you”, Cesca giggled as she found her and Jonahs lips meeting once more, their tongues began to mingle, Jonah clearly wanted to more “Jonah”, Cesca tried to say between each long luscious kiss. He looked at her with a cheeky smile, “It’s the middle of the day, plus you don’t have long”, “What happened to a bit of spontaneity and time is nothing, we’ve got long enough”, Cesca laughed before saying with her giggles “No, what are you wanting for lunch?”, Cesca began to get up but was stopped by Jonah, “No, I’ll get it. Chicken sandwich sound okay?”, “Lovely”, She watched as Jonah did some kind of funny dance out the room before beginning to make their lunch. Cesca couldn’t help but laugh, she loved how Jonah made her feel so good, she got up and sat at the table as she saw him bring the plates through, they sat opposite each other as they began to tuck in.
Their eyes were sparkling and smiles were present they didn’t have long before Jonah had to be back at school to teach his worst group, which made spending time with his lovely wife even more special. He reached out his hand caressing hers in his palm. “I love you so much, I know I have said it so many times, but I am so sorry about last night about everything”, “j, I love you and I know you love me to, your right we are going to argue. We’re married and we live with each other, we can’t get along all the time but it’s the way we deal with it afterwards, we need to work on that”, Cesca smiled at him, he knew that she had forgiven him, he felt better about his next class, there was no more pain, no more guilt, if Cesca was happy so was he. She really was all that mattered. Jonah had to go, he kissed his wife before being pulled back for a more intimate moment, he left with a smile on his face, leaving Cesca mirroring him, she bit her lip as she sat with her hand on her belly, this all felt so right, being married to Jonah, living with him, having his children. It all felt perfect but none of it was to perfect though Cesca sure felt like a princess in Jonah’s arms. She carried on with watching telly but this time she decided to start looking for the twin’s buggy, she just suddenly felt all maternal. Cesca had always been excited about having the twins but each day that excitement seemed to step up a notch and today’s excitement had come a little later than usual but the point was it was still there. Cesca couldn’t help but allow a black double buggy complete with the word sis and bro in pink and blue to catch her eye. It was gorgeous; the inside of each seat was very detailed and individual with the bro side black with a warm lining of baby blue fluff and blue printed stars. The sis side was also black inside but completed with a lining of pink fluff and dark pink flowers. It was simple and practical but played so nicely on the idea that they had twins; they were already so excited this was just perfect. The credit card came out and so did an even more beautiful smile as Cesca rubbed her belly, she really couldn’t wait till the day Betsy and Oscar were born. Cesca received another text it was from Jonah, what a surprise; she opened it still smiling: just to say in case you thought I hadn’t noticed, I loved the straight hair Jx.
