- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
Chapter 56 - Time to Relax?
Cesca’s day had been lovely, she had so many messages and a few more pressies and cards to be added to the pile that Year 9 had already started for her, she was now uber excited, this was going to be such a big change, she was leaving waterloo road as a mum of one and coming back as a mum of 3, that was a scary but a seriously exciting jump, she sat in her classroom, at her desk looking at all the empty seats, it would be a few months at least until she once again had control in this room, it was going to be strange leaving it all behind for a while, her classroom was filled with so many memories, so many amazing times, so many happy but also sad times, it was a haven of thoughts and a room of reflection, Cesca never thought her life would be so fulfilled at the same time as having been made so complicated just because she fell in love with someone she probably shouldn’t have, but you can’t change or decided who you fall for, like Shakespeare said, the course of true love never did run smooth. He was right how many relationships have you heard or had that haven’t been bumpy or tough along the way, relationships are virtual rollercoaster’s, ongoing and never ending. Who knows what tomorrow is going to bring, who knows what the next argument you have is going to be about. The truth is life and love is both two big tests, testing your inner strength and faith in another. Cesca and Jonah have been through so much as a couple, fighting everything that has ever hit them ever tried to tear them apart, there strong, they are made for each other. Cesca smiled as she got up, collecting her bag from the table behind her, she began to walk out the door, flicking the light switch as she left her classroom, she took once last look at it all, the Spanish posters, the numbers on the wall and her desk. She shut the door behind her before she became emotional; she wanted this to be a happy day not an excuse to bawl her eyes out. Cesca headed for the staff room to meet Jonah, he still had a lot of making up to do to get back in to Cesca’s good books, she loved him and had forgiven him but just like any partner he drove her mad sometimes and today had been one of those days. Cesca was walking up the corridor Balancing her bag on her arm as well as holding the card under the other, the presents were bulging out of her bag so Cesca was really struggling to lug it all up the corridor, but she was managing. Though she was secretly hoping that some one of the likes of Jonah might happen to pass her and help her with her bags but with Cesca’s luck that didn’t happen, she reached the door, Tom was on his way out so held the door open for her, Cesca found the nearest seat to plonk all of the bags down on while she grabbed her coat and waited for Jonah. She had one of her arms through the sleeve of her coat as Jonah walked in “I came in my car”, “Yes I know but thought you might want to walk out together”, “Well what difference does it make, sounds a bit weird to me, were going in different cars. I’ll see you at home”, Cesca was slightly confused and was now really annoyed. She would have usually left this argument till later but Jonah had been acting strange and aggressive towards her all day and she wasn’t putting up with it for any longer, this was going to be settled now, Cesca didn’t have time to wait for the dust to settle on its own it needed a few words to help it all on its way. “What is the matter with you Jonah, one minute your fine and the next your all stressed and aggressive”, “Just go home Cesca”,”No this isn’t like you, I thought this was sorted, I mean I felt like we still had to talk but you came and apologised you sat in on my lesson and now your back to being that naive 22 year old again”, Cesca was fuming, she didn’t have to put up with all this and she was making that very clear, “That’s it you bring up the whole age difference, it takes two to be in a relationship Cesca”, “why does that have anything to do with it, I’m talking about you moping around in a strop because you didn’t sleep very well last night, well I’ve got news for you, there is going to be an awful lot more where that came from and you won’t be the only one suffering, I can tell you now, I’m not going to be taking my sleepless nights out on you”, Cesca was fed up, this argument was just making her seem naive to, she was with him, she was with the naive 20 year old. “I’m not naive Cesca”, “Then stop acting like you are, I’m fed up of your stroppiness it’s liking having Mia at work”, “That’s low Cesca, even for you, comparing me to our 4 year old daughter”, “Glad your finally understand my point then”, Everyone else had gone, it was just the pair of them arguing in the staff room, Cesca was angry and upset, she sat down, her feet were sore, as she bawled her eyes out. “Ces”, Cesca didn’t reply she didn’t want to see him she didn’t want to look at him he made her so angry. They hadn’t argued like this for weeks, so this argument was long overdue, “It’s just your hormones” Jonah said, Cesca looked up at him, “How naive can you be” Cesca was truly upset, it hurt her even more to feel that her own husband the man she loved was too stupid to realise that for himself. “Jonah these tears are because of you, because of how you have made me feel”, “I’m sorry”, “You think that’s going to make everything better, it hurts even more to know that you don’t realise how much today has hurt me. This was my last day Jonah, I wanted it to be happy, I wanted to leave here with a smile on my face and my own husband was the one that ruined that”, Cesca went back to staring at the floor, tears trickled down her chin until they dropped towards the floor.
“Is what I have done really that bad”, Jonah asked, Cesca sobbed once more, “You just don’t listen do you, did you not hear anything I just said”, Jonah was digging a hole for himself, a huge one at that. “why can’t you think of anyone but yourself for once”, “Says the person who is only thinking about herself this very second”, “You absolute hypocrite, this whole thing happened because I was thinking about you, caring about you....I tried to help and it just got thrown back in my face, so I left you to it. I let you do what you wanted to do and still I get the blame. There is no pleasing you is there, nothing is ever good enough for you”. Cesca was speaking from the heart now, every word had to be said, it had to be shared, Jonah had to understand her point of view she’d had to put up with his all day. “Cesca, I’m sorry for what I put you through today”, “And what exactly is it that you put me through, I want to know that you understand”, “I blamed you for just trying to help, just trying to be the caring Cesca that I love. I love you and nothing will ever change that, I’m sorry but sometimes were going to argue sometimes we are going to fall out”, “Your right, but I’d rather fall out over something that actually matters than something that you could have sorted a long time ago, none of this had to happen”, “I should have listened to you Ces, I’m sorry. I love you so much”, Jonah now had tears rolling down his cheek to, he did truly care about Cesca, and he loved her. “I hate the fact that I have made you feel like this” Cesca lifted her hand to his face, “I love you, but you hurt me today” “I know”, Jonah blubbed. “The thing with you J is you care too much, that’s why we’re in this mess, we love each other to much. Making every little thing hurt that much more” Cesca looked into his eyes; he knew that she was right. Jonah held her hand whilst it was still on her face, “We should go”, “You have some making up to do, remember”, Cesca managed to get her flirtatious charm out despite still looking a little teary. He helped her up before pulling her close. “I love you Cesca, I love our family. I’m going to look after you, I am always going to protect you”, Cesca looked up at him her eyes dazed with love. She gave him a peck on the lips, her lips lingered enticing Jonah, he wanted more but Cesca wasn’t going to give it to him. She just wanted to be lying in his arms, she just wanted his embrace to take this all away, but she needed to be home for that to happen. Cesca adjusted her coat before going to pick up her bag, “Leave it, I’ve got it”, Cesca smiled, she looked at the time, “we’re late for Mia. She’s going to be worried, were never late”, Cesca got herself into a state again, she was over emotional now, but Jonah was there to save the day. “Shh, its okay I’ll call my dad see if he can have Mia for tonight. “ Cesca smiled, he wiped her tears away before taking her phone out of her hand and ringing his dad, the phone call was short and sweet but everything had been arranged, Mia was spending the night at her granddad’s something she hadn’t done in a while, so Mia was bound to be enjoying the idea. Cesca took a deep breath in, she picked up the card, “Come here”, Jonah said holding his hand out, Cesca wrapped her fingers in between his and inclined her head towards his shoulder as they began to walk out of the school, “I love you”, was all she said. Jonah let go of her hand and wrapped it around her body instead, they needed this closer contact, and they needed each other. They reached the car park, “right so I’ll meet you back at the house” Jonah said, “No, I’m not leaving you, and I can get the car tomorrow. I just want you”, Jonah wasn’t going to argue with that so guided his wife towards his car, he unlocked it and opened the back door popping both their bags in. They both got in and Jonah smoothly pulled away leaving Cesca’s blue Clio the only car left in the car park. They reached the house, Jonah turned the engine off and got out and grabbed their bags Cesca was still holding the card, it was about the only thing she felt like managing, plus Jonah was quite happy to hold her bag for her, he felt it was the least he could do, Jonah held Cesca’s hand tightly as they walked up to their front door. Cesca had the keys so quickly turned them in the lock. There had been a sense of want all the way home, Cesca and Jonah wanted each other, the needed each other, they both had some making up to do, well Jonah did but Cesca was quite happy to join in. She placed the card on the hall table which knocked the note she had written earlier that day to the ground Jonah dropped the bags from his grip in an instance. Jonah pulled Cesca close as she pushed him through to the lounge, their lips joined and tongues meeting with every breath they shared, smiles and grins were once again back on their faces, there had been too many tears for one day, the night couldn’t get any worse, or could it?
Jonah began to unbutton her dress as Cesca pulled off his shirt, it was all going so well until Cesca tripped, falling to the floor, Jonah was still holding her tightly as she reached the sitting room carpet, he broke her fall, “Fancy falling over whilst eating your husband’s face” Cesca giggled, the whole thing was just so typical. Jonah didn’t respond, his face was full of shock, worry. His face dropped two shades as his eyes widened. “J, what’s the matter”, “The twins, our babies. Are they okay? Are you hurt?”, “J, I’m fine, you broke my fall” “we need to get you to hospital, we need to make sure there okay, that your okay”, “Did you not listen to anything I just said. You broke my fall, yes I hit the floor but I didn’t fall”, “Come on, we need to go, we need to go now”, Jonah was back to being his overprotective self, he wouldn’t have reacted in this way if he hadn’t have been so emotional today, things seemed to be going from bad to plain right ugly. Cesca managed to find her feet it was a struggle, she made her way to the sofa, she sat down and began to do her dress back up again. She rubbed her leg, which only caught Jonah’s eye, “You’re hurt, we need to go. We need to have you checked over”, Cesca got up, “For god sake Jonah, I bashed my leg, I haven’t broken it”, “Cesca we NEED TO GO”, Cesca felt like she was talking to a brick wall, there was no getting through to him. Jonah reached out, grabbing Cesca’s arm as he began to pull her through, Cesca moved her arm away, “Jonah I’m fine, we’re fine”, “We are going to the hospital”, Cesca didn’t know what else to do, she was angry, why wasn’t he listening to her, it was her body, she would know if something was wrong, if something wasn’t right. “Cesca, were going... NOW!” All of the sudden Cesca lashed out, slapping him round the face. “Jonah I’m fine, the babies are fine, stop over- reacting”, Jonah held his face, “You think I’m over reacting, you just fell to the floor, Cesca your pregnant”, “State the obvious, I’m fine, I didn’t full out fall, you were holding me, I didn’t even land on my stomach”, “why don’t you go up to bed, lie down and take it easy”, “Jonah I’m fed up of taking it easy, an old woman does more than I do, I’m fine and I don’t need to lie down”, “Ces, I know it’s frustrating, but it will be worth it in the end”, “You just don’t get it, you’re being over protective, you always think the worst”, “That’s not true”, “Jonah it is, you worried that something might have happened to the babies, when it isn’t even possible. You don’t let me drive in case I crash and the air bag goes off”, Jonah didn’t reply, “Look the point is you don’t need to worry, there isn’t anything to worry about, you’re always going on about their needing to be a calm atmosphere for the babies, you’re the biggest hypocrite. I mean look at you, making everything into one big drama, making everyone worry or in this case get really angry and stressed out for no reason”. Jonah got up his eyes like daggers as his stare became almost deathly, he headed out of the room towards the door, “Where you going now”, “Anywhere that means I’m not causing anymore drama for you”, “That’s it you go off as soon as anything gets tough”. Cesca was furious, why did he always have to fly off the handle, she had a right to tell him how he was making her feel, but now she regretted every word, she reached for her phone and simply texted him : I love you. She sat back into the sofa, her feet up staring into the walls as she thought about the fact that everything always seemed to happen to them, it were as if everyone was trying to get back at them for what she had done. Her phone bleeped which brought her back to reality, I love you to, I’m sorry, was all the text said. Cesca was glad to get this text back, but at the same time it told her nothing about his decision was he coming back? Or was this him, running away as things got hard? Either way Cesca needed him, she wanted him, why did he have to take everything to heart, Cesca was fed up of bottling things up having to take everything that hit her and being expected to just get on with it. Today had been hard, but she knew they would get through it that was if Jonah chose to come back.
“Is what I have done really that bad”, Jonah asked, Cesca sobbed once more, “You just don’t listen do you, did you not hear anything I just said”, Jonah was digging a hole for himself, a huge one at that. “why can’t you think of anyone but yourself for once”, “Says the person who is only thinking about herself this very second”, “You absolute hypocrite, this whole thing happened because I was thinking about you, caring about you....I tried to help and it just got thrown back in my face, so I left you to it. I let you do what you wanted to do and still I get the blame. There is no pleasing you is there, nothing is ever good enough for you”. Cesca was speaking from the heart now, every word had to be said, it had to be shared, Jonah had to understand her point of view she’d had to put up with his all day. “Cesca, I’m sorry for what I put you through today”, “And what exactly is it that you put me through, I want to know that you understand”, “I blamed you for just trying to help, just trying to be the caring Cesca that I love. I love you and nothing will ever change that, I’m sorry but sometimes were going to argue sometimes we are going to fall out”, “Your right, but I’d rather fall out over something that actually matters than something that you could have sorted a long time ago, none of this had to happen”, “I should have listened to you Ces, I’m sorry. I love you so much”, Jonah now had tears rolling down his cheek to, he did truly care about Cesca, and he loved her. “I hate the fact that I have made you feel like this” Cesca lifted her hand to his face, “I love you, but you hurt me today” “I know”, Jonah blubbed. “The thing with you J is you care too much, that’s why we’re in this mess, we love each other to much. Making every little thing hurt that much more” Cesca looked into his eyes; he knew that she was right. Jonah held her hand whilst it was still on her face, “We should go”, “You have some making up to do, remember”, Cesca managed to get her flirtatious charm out despite still looking a little teary. He helped her up before pulling her close. “I love you Cesca, I love our family. I’m going to look after you, I am always going to protect you”, Cesca looked up at him her eyes dazed with love. She gave him a peck on the lips, her lips lingered enticing Jonah, he wanted more but Cesca wasn’t going to give it to him. She just wanted to be lying in his arms, she just wanted his embrace to take this all away, but she needed to be home for that to happen. Cesca adjusted her coat before going to pick up her bag, “Leave it, I’ve got it”, Cesca smiled, she looked at the time, “we’re late for Mia. She’s going to be worried, were never late”, Cesca got herself into a state again, she was over emotional now, but Jonah was there to save the day. “Shh, its okay I’ll call my dad see if he can have Mia for tonight. “ Cesca smiled, he wiped her tears away before taking her phone out of her hand and ringing his dad, the phone call was short and sweet but everything had been arranged, Mia was spending the night at her granddad’s something she hadn’t done in a while, so Mia was bound to be enjoying the idea. Cesca took a deep breath in, she picked up the card, “Come here”, Jonah said holding his hand out, Cesca wrapped her fingers in between his and inclined her head towards his shoulder as they began to walk out of the school, “I love you”, was all she said. Jonah let go of her hand and wrapped it around her body instead, they needed this closer contact, and they needed each other. They reached the car park, “right so I’ll meet you back at the house” Jonah said, “No, I’m not leaving you, and I can get the car tomorrow. I just want you”, Jonah wasn’t going to argue with that so guided his wife towards his car, he unlocked it and opened the back door popping both their bags in. They both got in and Jonah smoothly pulled away leaving Cesca’s blue Clio the only car left in the car park. They reached the house, Jonah turned the engine off and got out and grabbed their bags Cesca was still holding the card, it was about the only thing she felt like managing, plus Jonah was quite happy to hold her bag for her, he felt it was the least he could do, Jonah held Cesca’s hand tightly as they walked up to their front door. Cesca had the keys so quickly turned them in the lock. There had been a sense of want all the way home, Cesca and Jonah wanted each other, the needed each other, they both had some making up to do, well Jonah did but Cesca was quite happy to join in. She placed the card on the hall table which knocked the note she had written earlier that day to the ground Jonah dropped the bags from his grip in an instance. Jonah pulled Cesca close as she pushed him through to the lounge, their lips joined and tongues meeting with every breath they shared, smiles and grins were once again back on their faces, there had been too many tears for one day, the night couldn’t get any worse, or could it?
Jonah began to unbutton her dress as Cesca pulled off his shirt, it was all going so well until Cesca tripped, falling to the floor, Jonah was still holding her tightly as she reached the sitting room carpet, he broke her fall, “Fancy falling over whilst eating your husband’s face” Cesca giggled, the whole thing was just so typical. Jonah didn’t respond, his face was full of shock, worry. His face dropped two shades as his eyes widened. “J, what’s the matter”, “The twins, our babies. Are they okay? Are you hurt?”, “J, I’m fine, you broke my fall” “we need to get you to hospital, we need to make sure there okay, that your okay”, “Did you not listen to anything I just said. You broke my fall, yes I hit the floor but I didn’t fall”, “Come on, we need to go, we need to go now”, Jonah was back to being his overprotective self, he wouldn’t have reacted in this way if he hadn’t have been so emotional today, things seemed to be going from bad to plain right ugly. Cesca managed to find her feet it was a struggle, she made her way to the sofa, she sat down and began to do her dress back up again. She rubbed her leg, which only caught Jonah’s eye, “You’re hurt, we need to go. We need to have you checked over”, Cesca got up, “For god sake Jonah, I bashed my leg, I haven’t broken it”, “Cesca we NEED TO GO”, Cesca felt like she was talking to a brick wall, there was no getting through to him. Jonah reached out, grabbing Cesca’s arm as he began to pull her through, Cesca moved her arm away, “Jonah I’m fine, we’re fine”, “We are going to the hospital”, Cesca didn’t know what else to do, she was angry, why wasn’t he listening to her, it was her body, she would know if something was wrong, if something wasn’t right. “Cesca, were going... NOW!” All of the sudden Cesca lashed out, slapping him round the face. “Jonah I’m fine, the babies are fine, stop over- reacting”, Jonah held his face, “You think I’m over reacting, you just fell to the floor, Cesca your pregnant”, “State the obvious, I’m fine, I didn’t full out fall, you were holding me, I didn’t even land on my stomach”, “why don’t you go up to bed, lie down and take it easy”, “Jonah I’m fed up of taking it easy, an old woman does more than I do, I’m fine and I don’t need to lie down”, “Ces, I know it’s frustrating, but it will be worth it in the end”, “You just don’t get it, you’re being over protective, you always think the worst”, “That’s not true”, “Jonah it is, you worried that something might have happened to the babies, when it isn’t even possible. You don’t let me drive in case I crash and the air bag goes off”, Jonah didn’t reply, “Look the point is you don’t need to worry, there isn’t anything to worry about, you’re always going on about their needing to be a calm atmosphere for the babies, you’re the biggest hypocrite. I mean look at you, making everything into one big drama, making everyone worry or in this case get really angry and stressed out for no reason”. Jonah got up his eyes like daggers as his stare became almost deathly, he headed out of the room towards the door, “Where you going now”, “Anywhere that means I’m not causing anymore drama for you”, “That’s it you go off as soon as anything gets tough”. Cesca was furious, why did he always have to fly off the handle, she had a right to tell him how he was making her feel, but now she regretted every word, she reached for her phone and simply texted him : I love you. She sat back into the sofa, her feet up staring into the walls as she thought about the fact that everything always seemed to happen to them, it were as if everyone was trying to get back at them for what she had done. Her phone bleeped which brought her back to reality, I love you to, I’m sorry, was all the text said. Cesca was glad to get this text back, but at the same time it told her nothing about his decision was he coming back? Or was this him, running away as things got hard? Either way Cesca needed him, she wanted him, why did he have to take everything to heart, Cesca was fed up of bottling things up having to take everything that hit her and being expected to just get on with it. Today had been hard, but she knew they would get through it that was if Jonah chose to come back.